Anxious.

Today, at around 12:15pm, I am going to leave my office, go with my husband and pick up  my mother and children. We are going to drop my husband and the kids off, and my mother and I are going to continue on to a doctor in the city. A good doctor. A doctor who is going to perform an ultrasound. Then we’ll go to another doctor. Another good doctor. That doctor is going to do a full exam, get a sample for biopsy, and generally put my mother through excruciating pain.

All this to wait, wait wait, wait wait wait wait wait…. and then hopefully, we’ll hear “No.It’s not cancerous” Not that it ends there. Then we go see a dermatologist. Because the spot on her leg most likely is cancer.

I know that I’ve posted about my problems with her. We have our troubles. We have our good times too. No matter what she is still my mother. I’m terrified.

22 Responses to Anxious.
  1. Nona
    September 22, 2009 | 11:21 AM

    So very sorry. Cancer, or even the threat of it, is unbelievably frightening. Sending good thoughts for you and your mom.
    Nona´s last blog ..Volcanos are the Earth proving it’s badass

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    MommyGeek Reply:

    @Nona, thank you, thank you.

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  2. AmazingGreis
    September 22, 2009 | 12:02 PM

    Wow, just wow. I will keep you and your mother in my thoughts today.

    XOXO

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    MommyGeek Reply:

    @AmazingGreis, I appreciate it :) Hopefully everything will turn out just fine….

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  3. becky
    September 22, 2009 | 1:14 PM

    sending out good thoughts to y’all today. it’s all so scary. i’m so over cancer and all the good people that are getting it. and i understand what you mean about your relationship with your mom. i was like that with my dad. we were strained A LOT. and after he died it was like..well, he was still my dad- the good and the bad. you know? take care of your mom and keep us posted.
    becky´s last blog ..Friends

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    MommyGeek Reply:

    @becky, I am SO OVER IT. Wish we could put the whole thing behind us already. Thank you for understanding the parent thing.

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  4. Danielle-Lee
    September 22, 2009 | 2:43 PM

    I am sorry. Not only does cancer run in my family, but so does girly problems. I completely get the stress and concern, for sure. I will be thinking of you and your mom. Hugs.
    Danielle-Lee´s last blog ..Blurred Precision

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    MommyGeek Reply:

    @Danielle-Lee, dude, I feel for you – the girly problems, and the cancer… well it’s enough to give a gal gray hair 20 years too early.

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  5. Miss Grace
    September 22, 2009 | 3:02 PM

    Know that I’m thinking of you and yours darlin.

    Love you.
    Miss Grace´s last blog ..Mira.

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    MommyGeek Reply:

    @Miss Grace, thank you sweetie pie.

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  6. Matt
    September 22, 2009 | 3:04 PM

    Oh hon, I can’t believe this is happening to you. :(

    I hope that your mom is okay. Even if it is cancer, it’s good that you’ve recognised that something’s wrong and you’re getting it checked out sooner rather than later.

    Take care hon. You’ve always got my e-mail if you need to splurge. :)

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    MommyGeek Reply:

    @Matt, worst part is that I can’t do much about it. :( I feel terrible for my mom. Thanks for the offer of email splurging.

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  7. Issa
    September 22, 2009 | 5:43 PM

    Oh honey, I’m late today. I’m sorry. I hope it well. That you have an answer that isn’t that word.

    Hugs to you.
    Issa´s last blog ..Why I should never have to go to the grocery store again

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    MommyGeek Reply:

    @Issa, no, not too late, because this was a nice email to get yesterday. I didn’t get home til late but got it on my phone, and it made me smile.

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  8. Kel
    September 22, 2009 | 7:06 PM

    I’m sorry, I hope everything turns out ok.
    ~K

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    MommyGeek Reply:

    @Kel, thanks Kel. You’re so sweet – always so supportive and kind. I really appreciate it.

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  9. foradifferentkindofgirl (fadkog)
    September 22, 2009 | 8:33 PM

    Sending up some prayers in hopes that you get good news.
    foradifferentkindofgirl (fadkog)´s last blog ..if the real thing don’t do the trick you better make up something quick

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    MommyGeek Reply:

    @foradifferentkindofgirl (fadkog), thanks babe. Some good news, but we’ll have to wait for everything else.

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  10. Kate Coveny Hood
    September 22, 2009 | 11:23 PM

    This is something I know well. No matter what – always get second opinions. Do research and leave no stone unturned. Ask stupid questions. But most importantly – remember that cancer research has come a long way and you’d be surprised at how much can be done for what would have once been fatal. Even if she does have cancer, you have every reason to believe that she’ll be just fine. My mom is living proof of this. I’ll be thinking about you.
    Kate Coveny Hood´s last blog ..Oh Right – I Was Going to Write About Our Summer Vacations…

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    MommyGeek Reply:

    @Kate Coveny Hood, thanks for your advice. We are definitely making sure that everything is 100% explored. Luckily my mom’s primary care dr.’s daughter is a very well known gyn in the area – he was able to get us an immediate appt with her, and she was amazing yesterday. So patient and kind and just generally GOOD about my mothers illness in addition to all this scary shit.

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  11. Kelly
    September 23, 2009 | 12:58 AM

    Oh, honey, I hope it all goes well, and that you hear the words you need to. When the shit hits the fan like that, all your issues and problems with her go out the window, I’m sure – you just do what you have to do, and be there for her.

    Hope to hear good news soon…
    Kelly´s last blog ..I’m Special…

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    MommyGeek Reply:

    @Kelly, not a lot of news, but nothing bad, so we’re staying hopeful. thanks babe.

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