Mommy Geek 2.0 (beta)

This post heavily inspired by Sam’s post, “Beta Much,” posted over a year ago on her personal blog Temporarily Me. Ever since I’ve read that post, the phrase has stuck in my head. “Beta much?” I ask myself, as I leave the house in sweatpants tshirt, no bra and flips flops in the pouring rain to get some hamburg for dinner. “Beta much” I ask myself, as I send my daughter to my mother’s house in her pajamas – again. “Beta much? I wonder, when the dishes have piled up so high we don’t have anything clean, and instead of washing them I buy paper plates and plastic utensils. Sam says, at the end of her post, “I couldn’t be happier. I. Am. BETA MOM.” That really sums it up for me.

When I first started this new blog, I entitled it Mommy Geekology.  As I thought about it, I added “2.0″ – for multiple reasons. It’s my second attempt at a blog since I’ve become a mother, and I’m a mother of two.

The site is in need of a facelift, and as soon as I can get together a few spare minutes, I’ll surely work on it. I’ve been conceptualizing, though – trying to figure out what this site means, what I write about most, and why you’re here.

I don’t specifically write about motherhood all the time. I certainly don’t write about technology as I thought I would – not the right audience, so I’m bringing those articles to my business blog (I’ll write about that soon, I promise!).  I write a lot of my self discovery, who I am as a person and as a mother. This is the place where I don’t have to wipe snot or shit, just my space. If you blog, I bet you know what I mean when I say that I want to find a way for it to be representative of me.

When I do get my new site layout completed, I’ll be adding to the title. Mommy Geekology 2.0 (beta). Because like Sam, I feel very much as though I’m still in beta.

Sure, with this second child, we’re reaching a more stable version of me. I get things right more often than I used to – at least, I hope I am. I’m slightly less of an emotional wreck. I’ve fixed mistakes I’d made in the past, and done some things right with Geeklet that I got wrong with Cupcake.

There are still bugs.

I’ve got a few glitches.

But, I’m headed somewhere good. I feel more confident about motherhood now – over three years into it, sure, but here I stand. In Sam’s words, which I truly cannot get out of my head — “I couldn’t be happier. I. Am. BETA MOM.”