I think I am becoming a better mom. I know that I am trying. I know that my relationship with my oldest daughter is improving. I know that I am finally making up for mistakes made early on in motherhood. I am proud of myself. I am proud of her. I am proud of our family. ...
It's a phrase that has been playing in my head over and over for several days. Cautiously Optimistic. When people ask me how I'm doing, it's what I want to say. How do you feel? Cautiously optimistic. I had a very painful experience with my mother this week. Years of anger and resentment, hurt over slights ...
Bullshit on the concept that being older means you are wiser. Bullshit that just because you've managed to keep from killing yourself or getting murdered in this life longer than I have meaning you deserve my respect. Bullshit on "Mother Knows Best" Bullshit that "One 'oh shit!' wipes out a thousand 'atta boys!' " Bullshit that I should be ...
Last night, Cupcake managed to dump a cup of water on her side table, where her nightlight lamp and the baby monitor reside, before I was suspicious of her whereabouts. She told me she was cleaning. I was on the phone with my mother at the time. Have you ever tried to teach your child something ...
I struggle with how much I should discipline my children. Since Cupcake is only 3.5yrs, and Geeklet is just a year old, this is definitely not the first time I'll question myself. The problem is that in questioning myself, I find I'm lacking consistency. I'm failing them in my lack of conviction. I was thinking about ...
She was never shy, but now, having given birth to two children in front of dozens of people she doesn't know, it seem unnecessary to cover up. Strips in the family room, next to a pile of clean laundry. The kids and her husband are in the room, but who cares? Those kids came from ...
My head is a bit foggy with everything that's going on. There is too much responsibility here, right now. I think I've taken on too much. I just need a few minutes, a few minutes to myself, to think quietly. I'm afraid of what I'll think during those minutes, though. I'm afraid of what decisions might be made. So I ...
This is one of those bullet-style random-ass posts that you probably hate. There are some interesting things going on in the blogosphere this week if you'd like something else to read - you can always see what Mommy Melee is doing (she's posting every day, whether it's ...
First of all? Thank you all, ALL of you, for the amazing, kind, wonderful emails and tweets and comments that you left about this. It really, really helped. And now, my stream-of-consciousness-update. I apologize in advance for the babbling. Bullet style. It took forever to get into the city yesterday for the ultrasound appointment, and then ...
Today, at around 12:15pm, I am going to leave my office, go with my husband and pick up my mother and children. We are going to drop my husband and the kids off, and my mother and I are going to continue on to a doctor in the city. A good doctor. A doctor who ...
